I was feeling a bit discouraged about the scarcity of attendees at recent book events along with the
meager online purchases. I asked myself why...
I know my books content and also know in my heart that they are a valuable way to appeal to the reader’s natural curiosity, with the hope that by reading, a desire will grow to want to know more about God’s amazing love.! "You know this how?" you ask. Because it was the action of putting words to paper that inspired me on my own faith-journey.
And yet, self-doubts arose. I took the slow sales as a sign that my goal was slipping away and I began to question if God was saying no. So I turned to scripture for answers.
As I thumbed my way through various Bible verses God continually reminded me that the only one limiting me was me and my doubt. Throughout scripture I read
how others struggled against great odds and never gave up hope in a faithful God. So I examined my motives. If what I was trying to accomplish was sincere, not filled with malice or hate towards others and was in line with God's purpose, then I just need to believe that God will fulfill His promise of a plan for me as long as I let go and let Him lead the way.
Jeremiah 29:11 "I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
2 Samuel 7:28 “O Sovereign LORD, you are God! Your words are trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant.”
Psalm 25:1-3 “To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul; you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me. No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse.”
My thoughts bubbled to the surface with a new understanding of God’s word. I was presented with an opportunity to lean ‘not on my own understanding,’ but to place my entire trust in Him, knowing that I can become stronger through His strength. Instead of trusting my own self-doubts and merely giving up, I need only to lean on my Lord and savior.
My aha moment was when I finally understood that God had a plan for me , though it lay hidden for a long time. He was with me in the darkness and He was the One who gave a nudge that awakened me and gave me a voice. My voice is through my first published book ‘A Vision Beyond Abuse’ as well as my fantasy books 'The Hidden Ones "Awakened" and "Confluence." My stores are about my journey through and beyond abuse while I seeking God’s answers. I am sharing this story with you so all will know no one should have to face the darkness alone. There is One who will never abandon, One who’s love and grace will withstand to the end of time.
I sense a need for something greater than self. So, I am led by Christ's love to be an encourager as I share about His faithfulness and grace.